Haunting Memories

Tears are slipping
from my eyes;
Right now my wish
is only to die-

It's not just what
he said and did to me...
But also what circumstances
brought it to be.

The physical pain
I can and will endure.
The mental and emotional pain...
I'm not sure.

The memories are with me
asleep or awake;
I'm not sureI've
the strength it will take.

I'm trying to be strong
and handle it alone...
But I'm afraid
to stay at or leave home.

I'm afraid to answer
or walk out the door-
Because of him,
will I be hurt some more?

I'm chased and caught
in my dreams each night.
Awake or asleep,
the memories in sight.

I can't seem
to get away from him!
In my dreams it happens
over and over again.

Of this memory
will I ever be free?
Will I ever again
want arms around me?

Will I ever again
want a man's touch?
I want to lose
this memory so much!!!

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