My Heart Still Beats

I play no role
in his dreams each night-
It's not me he loves...
or wants to hold tight.

He sleeps in his room
and I sleep in mine-
I toss and I turn...
but he sleeps just fine.

My heart still beats erratically
with each accidental touch-
To go back to our yesterdays...
I've never wanted anything so much.

How do you say goodbye to love
when it's in every beat of your heart-
When it would tear every fiber
of your universe apart.

I pray my death comes
before he says goodbye-
I feel handicapped in love...
My time is drawing nigh.

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