A Glimpse Into My Future

A glimpse into my future
Was recently granted to me
I want to share how I feel
About what is meant to be

Lord please put your hands on mine
A message to a chosen few
To all those lead to read these words
Who must face death and dying too

Something seems to be stuck
Lodged tightly in my throat
With sickness riddled all through me
I feel like my spirit has been broke

Feeling myself slipping and giving up
Reaching out I grab hungrily for the ropes
It seems I have only one thing left
Living through other's dreams and hopes

Meal times they come and go
Seems useless to me now
Feeling eyes full of empathy
Can't face it don't know how

Feeling like a burden to others
Knowing it'll only get worse
Why can't it all just be over
In my mind my death I rehearse

Treated so differently now
Causing those I love such pain
Their worried eyes speaking silently
I feel guilty the one to blame

Where did all the laughter go
The shouts from room to room
The house is like a morgue now
Just dropping a pin is a sonic boom

Their lives must get back to normal
They musn't wait for me to pass
If I could only hurry it on a little
They could be smiling again at last

I'm not ready but I've been called
And really having no say in the matter
I am now in a holding pattern
But soon my ashes they'll scatter

Over the mountains down sweet valleys
Into the oceans to visit each pond
Flying with His gift of wings
Back home where I've always belonged



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