Pains Of Friendship

How do I put into words what I feel deep inside
Missing your friendship, don’t know how many tears I’ve cried
Life had taught me friendship’s not what it’s cracked up to be
My need was great, and I was blinded and couldn't’t see

Lessons that friendship has taught me went out the window
I prayed to my Lord to show me which road to follow
Believing in the path God allowed me to walk down
I shared emotions; love, pain, and yes even my frown

I basked in friendship’s warmth and held it close to my heart
Enjoyed it, not knowing it would silently depart
It left me feeling like I just wasn't good enough
And if I didn't like it, well gee, that was just tough

I’ve tried to be strong and keep my feelings to myself
But they spill; telling in words of my heart’s lose of wealth
Now friendship’s a burden my heart denies to carry
Unless hidden, what others do with it is scary

Now I will be friendly, but also keep my distance
If friendship knocks on my door, it will find resistance
I won’t be drawn out, to be made to look a fool
I won’t believe in friendship’s warmth, now I know it’s cool

I will share my friendship, but quietly through my prayers
Only my Lord above will know how much my heart cares
There will be no hellos, nor the need for sad goodbyes
I will get over the friendship for which my heart cries


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