Spiritual Forum Dedication

Standing by the window
I want to be angry
But crocodile tears
Make rainbows in the sun

Watching with blurry eyes
I see him pull her close
They giggle like sweethearts
Sharing a private joke

As lips touch greedily
My world explodes apart
Daggers piercing my soul
I'm too empty to bleed

Wanting to run I can't
Eyes refusing to close
Breath caught in a tight throat
Unable to scream "NO!"

As they fall to the floor
Caught in each other's limbs
My heart accepts defeat
My spirit faces death

I'm home I don't know how
I was there now I'm here
Tears still fall but I'm numb
My computer calls me

Wouldn't you just know it
I found some magic there
An angel's offerings
Understanding and prayer

No discussion needed
Just a couple of words
A shoulder in friendship
Appreciated hug

This friendship steadied me
His comment made me smile
My eyes still made rainbows
Heart not seeing humor

I went to Cindy's forum
And read some poems of faith
With a mental shaking
I dropped down to my knees

By the time he came home
I was dry and smiling
He thinks I'm in the dark
But my prayers are for him

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